Let me be full, let me be empty

I must admit that today was harder for my heart than I expected. The people of San Jose are full of joy, but the poverty was overwhelming. The kids worked so hard on a house they would not even live in later. I must I admit I felt quite physically weak in comparison to the people in the village. At the beginning of the day, I was anxious to get to work and meet the people. I met these two adorable girls and wanted to start a conversation, but discovered both were deaf and therefore could not speak. My heart was filled with anguish. I thought about Psalm 121 for the rest of the day. The girls smiled and followed us around all day they had joy despite their circumstances. John Wesley's covenant prayer comes to mind:

I am no longer my own, but thine.

Put me to what thou wilt, rank me with whom thou wilt.

Put me to doing, put me to suffering.

Let me be employed for thee or laid aside for thee,

exalted for thee or brought low for thee.

Let me be full, let me be empty.

Let me have all things, let me have nothing.

I freely and heartily yield all things to thy pleasure and disposal.

And now, O glorious and blessed God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit,

thou art mine, and I am thine.

So be it.

And the covenant which I have made on earth,

let it be ratified in heaven.

Amen.

Today I was laid aside, brought low, and felt empty. I am no longer my own, glory to God.